Drained | Sarah Schiff
For the near-decade since she crossed over with baby Maryna in her belly, Vira has been wiping up after grubby college students and waiting to rest. She tells herself they are just kids, but she can’t help cursing them when she finds shit-smeared toilets and banisters dotted with hardened gum. The anonymity of the night shift is reassuring (even if she never stops watching for the watchers), but it’s also a drain on her body, knowing all the while it should be asleep. She leans on the mop as if it is a third leg, studies her feet while summitting the marble staircases, and cleans as she dreams standing up. Sometimes she wonders whether running was a mistake. If she can believe an aunt who never left, things have improved, but this is the only home Maryna has ever known.
Most people at the university merely see backdrop as they pass Vira, but one night a med student actually looks at her. He’s studying in a classroom glowing blue from his computer screen when she wheels in her Metro Deluxe Cleaning Cart and uses her shoulder to switch on the overhead lights. Even though she turns away from him, she can feel his eyes idling as she sponges the chalkboard clean and lets herself fantasize. Maryna has grown independent, the president just signed a new order, Vira has lasted this long in the undocumented dark—even has her own apartment now. Maybe this med student can be hers too.
The next night, he’s there again, this time right by the board, so she has to squeeze by him to clean it, and as she does, she looses a giggle that doesn’t sound like hers.
Older than his classmates and far less privileged, Drew is lonely too. She is more his peer than they are.
He won’t take her back to his place. He has three roommates, he says. Vira doesn’t invite him to hers: Maryna. According to the movies, broom closets have a reputation, and the one Vira uses has a cot. Some nights, Drew brings rotisserie chicken that they eat with their fingers and wash down with white wine from a jug. The wine burns her nose, and she doesn’t care that the chicken-grease on his fingers stains her uniform—until the next day when she has to take an unscheduled bus ride to the laundromat. But she smiles as she counts out the quarters, smelling the chicken in her hair.
Then Drew proposes. He’s moving to the other side of the country for his internship and wants her to go with him. Vira isn’t sure of her own feelings or whether he loves her for her and not for the comfort she brings, but the promise of citizenship is enough. She tries convincing herself that acceptance comes with love, but she well knows how rarely that jackpot is won. They start planning their future, and Drew stops bringing condoms to the broom closet.
Then he graduates and is gone.
Her calls to his phone aren’t answered by his voice, “We’re sorry, the number you have reached…” but she hangs up and dials again, every day. For nine months.
Now Vira has a new baby and no Drew and no citizenship. Milk spills and wets her uniform through the night while she cleans shit, scrapes gum, and curses the students. She pumps and bottles it in the broom closet so Maryna can feed it to Tristan while Vira is at work, but the milk only trickles when she’s at home with him during the day. He sucks at nothing then wails and wails with an exhausting hunger. Vira knows how he feels.

about the author:

If we’re talking about my personal idea of the good life, it would be sitting on the beach, surrounded by friends and family, getting to hear their joys and chatter while my face is buried in a good book.
A native Floridian and dual US and Canadian citizen, Sarah Schiff earned her PhD in American literature from Emory University but is a fugitive from higher education. She now writes fiction and teaches high school English in Atlanta. Her short stories have appeared in Pembroke Magazine, Valparaiso Fiction Review, The Saturday Evening Post, and Cleaver, among others. She’s been twice nominated for a Pushcart prize, by J Journal andJMWW, was a finalist for the TulipTree Review’s Wild Women Story Contest, and was a 2024 Jack Hazard Fellow. Wouldn’t you know it: She’s currently at work on a novel. More at https://sarah-schiff.com/
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