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 Jamie Wendt Reviews “The Deep Blue of Neptune” by Terry Belew

Winner of the 2024 Stan and Tom Wick Poetry Prize

The Deep Blue of Neptune
Kent State University Press 2025 
Paperback 66 pp
ISBN: 978-1-60635-498-8

Review by Jamie Wendt

In the introduction to poet Terry Belew’s debut poetry collection, The Deep Blue of Neptune, winner of the 2024 Stan and Tom Wick Poetry Prize, judge Alison Hawthorne Deming writes, “For Terry Belew, the local is in the lens through which the universal struggles of our mortal condition can be seen.” Throughout these poems, Belew’s speaker wrestles with grief from his past and for the future in rural America, through its guns, whiskey, solitude, and all its nuances and complexities. 

Belew’s writing is grounded in a place where wildlife and rodents make their way into the speaker’s childhood, where violence and survival intermingle with beauty and regret. In the litany poem, “Wish List for a Deity,” Belew writes:

            Forgive my vices and replace my thoughts 
with an iPhone… 

Forgive me 
            for shooting a mostly road-killed raccoon – 

too precious to stay half-dead in the road – 
            in the face.

Belew mixes sarcasm and humor with a raw empathy for animals and life around him, causing him to plead, “Please tell me which way to live” in the last line of the poem. Figuring out how to live with tragedy and confusion all around is at the center of many of the poems in this collection. 

A similar moment reveals itself in “Pest Control,” where the speaker’s dad “filled a Shop-Vac quarter-full of water / and stuck the hose / into the mouse hole” followed by the speaker and his brother shooting the mice “with pellet guns, their lead-riddled / bodies writhing until laying / still as frost’s mercy.” The pain in these images shows an environment where a cacophony of unwanted sounds bleeds into the poet, who stacks these moments together to create the narrative. There is a wildness in the setting that the speaker frequently tries to cope with, and the poetic meandering style with silences across sections of the page imitates this content. 

Belew’s poems begin in intimate spaces, such as in a backyard garden of melons or in the waiting room of a hospital with his son. Yet the poems always expand outward to larger topics to be contended with, such as death, poverty, social media, and parenthood. In the poem “Animal Science,” after describing a police officer pulling over a girl whom he has pulled over before “because he knows about her / fentanyl…”, Belew writes:

… I know
of no other animal that keeps poisoning 

itself, Sodium Nitrate and Yellow #5,
                        cheeseburgers and bourbon, the constant
            stream of shootings in the news

                        reminding me I’m alive.

Over and over, there is tenderness riding beneath each image. Belew’s word choice is playful in sound and careful in building enjambment and wonder. 

Belew also recalls and reflects upon traumatic stories, including the murder of a friend in the poem “For Certain.” He admits, “This isn’t my story to tell,” though through the details of memories he had with this friend, the last time he talked to him, and the details he discovered about his death make the situation his own. He writes:

The last time I spoke to him, we were ordering
                   Chinese for our families near the town
we grew up in. We talked about playing music

                   ten years ago, his rapping snare, double kick
drums, my Telecaster plugged into a now-sold
                   half-stack, both of us trying and failing to stay in time.  

The idea of “trying and failing to stay in time” is experienced in other poems that bring readers into the speaker’s childhood, such as “Trash Pile,” where a child “wanted to see an aerosol can / explode”, causing his younger brother to end up in the hospital. Upon his return, “his face was scarred as war metal…” and the speaker reflects, “Now, when something detonates / at the neighbors’, I smell / burnt flesh, chlorofluorocarbon, / think of the boy’s lipless smile.” 

Belew’s use of imagery highlights his capacity to notice the anger and guilt for the way we live, whether due to recklessness, and dreams we lose sight of when we notice our over-reliance on technology, which he explores in the poem “Wish List While Reading the News on my Phone,” where he begs, “Find me stupid / videos so I laugh, because the news / is someone killing another…” We can relate to finding ways to avoid the tragedies around us, to avoid the absences we feel in our lives. 

Belew explores his landscape through sestinas, sonnets, list poems, and free verse lyrics that pay close attention to sound and movement across the page. Central to the collection’s architecture are Belew’s three stunning sestinas – “The Anatomy of Envy,” “The Anatomy of the Cold,” and “The Anatomy of Forgiveness.” These poems punctuate the book with contemplation on selfhood and parenthood, as well as conflicts between nature and society. And despite all our struggles, there is language, there is the lyric, and there is The Deep Blue of Neptune.


Terry Belew lives in rural Missouri. He received his MFA from the University of Nebraska-Omaha, where he won the 2022 and 2023 Helen W. Kenefick Prize from the Academy of American Poets. Recent work can be found in journals such as MeridianSouthern Humanities ReviewStorm CellarGulf Stream, and Tar River Poetry, among many others. 

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Cid Galicia Reviews “All the Possible Bodies” by Iain Haley Pollock

Iain Haley Pollock’s Poetry Collection “All the Possible Bodies” is a Existential Exploration In a society where identity is pre-ordained

Review by Cid Galicia

ALL THE POSSIBLE BODIES
Alice James Books
September 2025
ISBN:
9781949944907

Book cover of 'All The Possible Bodies' by Iain Haley Pollock, featuring a sculpted hand in the foreground, with the title and author's name prominently displayed.

The Matrix is a system, Neo, and that system is our enemy. Unfortunately, no one can be told what The Matrix is. You have to see it for yourself

-Morpheus (The Matrix)

Everyone keeps trying to tell me how my stories supposed to go. Nah…Ima do my own thing.

-Miles Morales (Across The Spider-Verse)

Navigating Pollock’s collection, ALL THE POSSIBLE BODIES, is a literary collision of The Matrix and The Spider-Verse. Like Morpheus trying to explain dual realities to Neo and Jefferson Davis (Dad) trying to guide Miles Morales (Spider-Man) through the internal war of becoming a hero, in a world that sees you as the enemy.  

In The Matrix, humans have become immobile mammalian batteries being fed by streaming videos of a fictional reality. The spirit of humanity, ingested and consumed, so that those in power can remain there comfortably and unabated. Unfortunately, that story is too close to reality and in the opening poem from Pollock’s collection, A BLACK MOTHER’S CHILD CONSIDERS HIS LOST DREAM OF IMMORTALITY, he reminds us of this through an early story of his mother.

My mother wanted to learn Latin on her way
to Greek, but the teachers had her pegged
to cook and sew…

They thought she should scurry
about the rooms of your house, America, picking up
what you had dropped. But she overcame to stand
at the front of a room, professor of language
and myth…

America, you have eaten your children
to keep your place on the honeyed mountaintop.
If you have not already, you will consume these children
too. And still you will come, with wild, ravenous hunger,
for more. And why do you keep doing what you do?

The administrators and teachers there wanted to download their virus into her, but her father would not hear it, and used the athletic prowess to to deny those in power and push for her to have the option to select her own position. 

Into The Spider-Verse and Across The Spider-Verse are the most recent reincarnations of The Spider-Man Saga and in this animated alternate universe, Spider-Man is a teenager of mixed race with a Black Father and Puerto Rican Mother. His father is a cop and his mother a nurse. The father is constantly trying to protect and love his young spiderling, but there is constant unspoken pushback and conflict. This thematic vein pulses through Pollock’s collection as well. Pollock writes on his observations of his older and younger sons, with their first apparition in the poem, WEIGHING DEATH BY PATRICIDE.

When, this spring, the virus shut us in,
the older boy and I
wore each other mean—
the friction of father and son heightened

by all around us the spidering sense
of sickness. I was glad the bitterness
between us went unseen
behind our house’s heavy, paneled door.

As the poem continues, the setting unfolds that he is walking with both sons. The older, branching off the trail, finding a spear, and exploring acts of strength and aggregation.

Balancing, he spears
a sharp-pronged stick
into the tree’s decomposition,
each jab kicking up
a spray of softened wood.

The poem expresses vulnerable fatherly concerns with the behaviors and actions of his boys. It explores how the external world, disease, as well as his own limitations and traumas are showing through in them.

The younger boy stays closer

to the trail and me, content
to peel away thick swaths

of diamond-furrowed bark.
He beams in triumph as he holds up

larger and larger strips, trophies
for me to see. Should I be disturbed
by their destruction? Their joy in it? Their zeal?
These last few weeks they’ve been scaring me.

In this collection, Pollock asks the hard questions of what it means to construct identity in the chaos of our times—to be the conductor of a constantly shifting symphony of identifying musics. He ponders what it means to be a man of mixed race, a father, and a teacher and asks where does one set roots, sink into the world, and take a stand on racism, sexism, violence, and injustice. One of his methods is through storytelling—recounting the narrative of his journey, his experiences, and lessons he has learned.

In the poem IS YOU IS, OR IS YOU AIN’T, he takes the reader through a cacophony of the multitude of past conversations orbiting around the same spectacle intent of his assured, and curious to others, racial identity.  What are you, is the opening line of a conversation he has been cursed to live, and may be eternally cursed to relive again and again. And he responds, I’m willing to wager, however, that you’re asking option two: the racial question. He goes on to narrate how narrow the confines of an American construction [point of view] that carries the racial residue– the questioner must have to ask in such a way, with such intent. And he responds…

What am I? I am a whole that is equal and
unequal to the sum of his parts. A liquid in a solid
system. The undetected spectrum floating between
fixed poles of a binary. I’m something while not being
anything that humans, especially American humans, can
figure out.

He closes this with a poignant final five words.

Did I answer your question?

This collection of poems is a generous embodiment, like a tribal elder narrative, an evocation and invitation. Through the examples of family we experience in his poems, we are invited to consider our place in the community—invited to listen, learn, observe, and to hope society moves toward acceptance, equality, value, and integrity in our country’s own evolving identity.


Iain Haley Pollock is the author of the poetry collections Ghost, Like a Place (2018) and Spit Back a Boy (2011).  His poems have appeared in numerous other publications, ranging from American Poetry Review to The New York Times Magazine and The Progressive.  Pollock has received several honors for his work including the Cave Canem Poetry Prize, the Alice Faye di Castagnola Award from the Poetry Society of America, and a nomination for an NAACP Image Award.  He currently serves as Director of the MFA Program in Creative Writing at Manhattanville College in Purchase, NY.

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Cid Galicia Reviews “Freeland” by Leigh Sugar

Leigh Sugar’s Freeland: A Journey of Love and Struggle Through Poetry and Prison Walls

Review by Cid Galicia

Freeland
Alice James Books
ISBN: 9781949944730
June 2025

Cover of the poetry book 'Freeland' by Leigh Sugar featuring a textured dark background with the title prominently displayed in white text.

You like me because I’m a scoundrel. There aren’t enough scoundrels in your life.

-Han Solo (The Empire Strikes Back)

There was something so pleasant about that place
Even your emotions have an echo in so much space.

-Gnarels Barkley (Crazy)

Navigating Leigh Sugar’s collection, FREELAND, is like being caught in an argument between Han Solo and Gnarles Barkley on how to rescue the Rebel Princess from the Galactic Empire’s prison, The Death Star. At least they weren’t caught in the 1900s, still naming prisons via historical indigenous geographic locations. Because we are, and Leigh is, and that is where we find ourselves, with her, in this collection.

Freeland, Michigan, is home to the Saginaw Correctional Facility,
a Michigan state prison.

[Established in 1993, the facility’s naming aligns with common practices of identifying institutions by their geographic locations, thereby reflecting the area’s indigenous heritage and historical significance]

Now let’s jump galactic timelines, governments, and rebellions, and lovers back to 2025 when, instead of a senator and a scoundrel, we find a writer and a prisoner. Welcome to Freeland.

In this impactful collection, Leigh writes about the U.S. mass incarceration system, whiteness, both within race and architectural design, and the struggle of sustaining identity and love within the prison industrial complex. It’s an impressive undertaking, but she doesn’t go it alone. She has surrounded herself with a rebel squadron: Edmond Jabes, Phillip Johnson, Solmaz Sharif, Gnarels Barkley, and Natasha Trethewey – just to name a few. You are not alone! You have powerful rogue allies to guide you through the trenches of exile, art, mysticism, and memory – For The Republic!

Collection Opening

What evokes a deep respect for Leigh and her work is her relentless commitment to the truth of her physical and psychological experience in the prison system. She does not give readers a free pass straight to the heart of her detainment center – her collection. That was never offered to her when she would visit her partner. For her to gain access, the process was lonely, vast, and invasive. There are Visiting Standards and protocols:

An officer searches your body like an envelope
Before we meet again in the room of infinite goodbyes

1. Prior Authorization
-Submit a formal request.
-Provide your credentials, purpose, & connection to the inmate
-If approved, you’ll receive written confirmation with the date, time, and duration of the visit.

2. Pre-Visit Preparation
-Review the prison’s visitor rules (e.g., dress code, contraband policy).
-Bring valid government-issued ID and, if required, your press or legal credentials.
-Arrive early to allow time for processing.

3. Entry Process
-Check in at the front desk/lobby.
-Present your ID and approval documents.
-Store personal belongings in a designated locker (phones, wallets, and bags are usually not allowed.)
-Pass through metal detectors and a pat-down or wand search.
-Your materials (notebook, recording device, etc.) must be pre-approved.
-Sign a logbook and possibly receive a visitor badge.

4. Escort to Visitation Room
-A corrections officer will escort you through several secured gates or corridors.
-Inmates may be brought separately and may be in restraints until seated.

5. The Visit
-Usually held in a non-contact room (behind glass) or a supervised contact room.
-Monitored by staff or recorded in some cases.
-Interviews have a time limit (commonly 30–60 minutes).

6. Exit Procedure
-Return badge (if issued).
-Collect belongings.
-Sign out.
-Exit through security.

All right, Cid, this is supposed to be a Poetry book review. How is your editor going to feel about listing the prison’s visitor entry process when you haven’t even touched on theme, style, or anything poetic? Didn’t you get in trouble for this the last time you submitted a review on Sugar’s work?

Yes I did! But here is why, and it’s [enter curse words here] Genius!  Leigh is a poetry collection Architectural Jedi! Displayed above are the basic steps to visit a prisoner. At the heart of Freeland is the answer to freedom, yours and hers. But Leigh knows the best way to learn and value what is learnt is to experience it as she did. The physical and psychological requirements needed to gain entry to the heart of a prison, to release the prisoner held within. That experience and that journey are the key to freedom, and she is offering you that key. But you just have to go through the 17-step process to get there!

That’s right before you even get to the first poem in her collection, you have to pass through a 17-page entry process. She is the warden in Freeland, and you will follow her rules.

Here is the initial architecture of her poetry collection:

1. Prior Authorization

-Book Cover (image & title) 1
-Title Page (text only) 2
-Blank Page 3
-Second Title Page (title & image) 4

2. Pre-Visit Preparation
-Publishing Information Page 5
-Table of Contents Page (3 Pages) 6-8
-Blank Page 9
-Informational Quote (from the author) 10

3. Entry Process
-Blank Page 11
-Opening Quote to the Collection (Edmond Jabes) 12
-Blank Page 13

4. Escort to Visitation Room
-Opening Poem to the Collection (Architecture School) 14
-Blank Page 15
-Part 1 Title Page/Quote (Solmaz Sharif) 16

5. The Visit
-Blank Page 17
-First Poem (Inheritance)         Page 18!!!!!

Prior Authorization & Pre-Visit Preparation

As part of the pre-visit preparation, Leigh gives us two quotes and the poem Architecture School.

The blank page is not a grid we must adapt to. It will surely become so, but at what price?

-Edmond Jabes

There is nothing that has nothing to do with this.

-Solamz Sharif

Jabes was a Jewish man who was exiled from Egypt due to the Suez Crisis set by the Egyptian President in 1956. Solmaz Sharif is an Iranian poet who used United States Department of Defense Terminology to interrogate the language of war. Why these quotes? Why do they matter? What do they mean?

Alright Rebel Scum, let’s get poetical! Jabes and Sharif both reflect three of Leigh’s thematic threads within the walls of FREELAND: Exile, The Questioning of Form in Art and Society, and Mysticism / Connection. Which leads to her introductory poem: Architecture School.

In this poem, she reflects on the idea of white space, a space that must be added to, subtracted from, or altered in some capacity to create an entity, a structure, or art. 

We studied Philip Johnson’s Glass House, 
the perennial favorite. Seamless integration into the landscape.

She reflects on her desire for the things we create to add to or modify the landscape, as opposed to desecrating or defiling it. Prisons are designed to secure, surveil, and deter. They are designed to separate both the eyes of its inside world, as well as the eyes of the outside world, from the truths of each other, and the agendas behind that intentionality. With each close read of this collection, your eyes will strengthen as you will see a bit deeper into the prisons you have built for yourself, or have been forced into. The poem closes with this:

What wonder—to see the thing, and through it.

This is her call to use this collection, upon its completion, not as a stopping point, but as a launching – to see deeper into how and where we have found ourselves, and our partner, imprisoned.

Entry Process

Part one of the collection is separated into three sections. The first is a set of poems that ping-pong back and forth between the wars and prisons of her Inheritance, her past, as well as the prison of her present, which holds her and her partner hostage. The last poem of the first section, titled Security, walks you through the conveyor of mechanisms, machines, doors, searches, and body offerings she had to endure to see him. Security is what led me to the architecture of my opening for this review.

OPEN GATE ONE step in
put your keys and your ID on the table walk through
the machine whoops
take your belt off try again
it smells in there by the way OK GATE TWO

Section 2 is intimate and private, an internal dialogue: sometimes to herself, and sometimes to another. She knows all too well that the prisoners, her partner, are not allowed the privilege of intimacy and privacy. So she sacrifices hers to us, the readers, to understand a bit deeper what the outlying and unspoken realms of the prison system feel like to enter. 

I pretend I am an anthro-
pologist when I lift my

hair and tongue to show
I hide no drugs or weapons
behind my ears or in my
mouth.

Section 3 is probably my favorite. How in all this, they, Leigh and her prisoner, fight to try and keep each other and their relationship above water, to try and keep the passion of their love alive. At times, it can be the darkness of desperation that invokes in us our ability for ultimate creative measures. Measures of a rebel and a scoundrel. Measure for Fantasy and phone sex!  There are a lot of great pieces in this section, but at its center, you will find the Correction’s Vault. A jeweled crown of sonnets. 

This braided selection is her heart’s war being pushed to its precipice. Can love survive a prison sentence? Should it be expected to? What is this world that one has to look to the pioneers of poetry to answer these questions? Whose world? Her world, their world, our world. In the end, it is only she– and only she must decide. This shattering 16 sonnets, this call // this struggle // this fighting to escape a reckoning is compulsively concussive to read. 

Once you unlock the first, you are its prisoner until the end. And once there, we’ll see how free you feel, probably as free as they do. Probably as free as she does. Each following sonnet is pinned to a line or passionate phrase from the previous, until they entropically implode upon themselves. 

In the visiting room I try to reconcile the you
I love with the jumpsuited you beside me.
I confess I want to leave and leave you there.

So far this review only covers the opening and part one of the collection! There are two more major parts, and the corridors, cells, escape routes, and medical centers you coaster through will leave you wet and sweating and in need of… 

a white V-neck T-shirt—619754
printed along its body-side bottom hem—
wrapped in a clear plastic garbage bag
an officer hands me to put in the coin-operated locker
before moving through security to see you

You will be sweating and aching because [A Number Is Just A Name]. 

This is where I will make my final stand, with two personal intersections with this work. Both from deep in my heart as a New Orleans poet and high school educator of 20 years:

The first is because of the School-to-Prison Pipeline. The school-to-prison pipeline in New Orleans refers to the pattern of pushing students, especially those from marginalized communities, out of the public school system and into the juvenile and criminal justice systems. This phenomenon is characterized by harsh disciplinary practices, lack of resources, and inadequate support systems that disproportionately affect students of color and students with disabilities.

The second is because in the third semester of my MFA, my mentor, Kate Gale, assigned me One Big Self by C. D. Wright. (Ms. Sugar was a finalist for the C.D. Wright Poetry Prize in 2024.) C.D. Wright wrote One Big Self, a documentary-poetry project to humanize the incarcerated men and women living through the prison system in Louisiana. In it, she reminds us that they are more than their prisoner identities. 

We are all more than our prisons. If you read Freeland, you will hurt a little, heal a little, and hope a lot.


Leigh (she/her) is a writer, teacher, and, most importantly, learner. According to her cardiologist, she is “an extremely pleasant but most unfortunate 34-y/o.” She created and edited That’s a Pretty Thing to Call It: Prose and Poetry by Artists Teaching in Carceral Settings (New Village Press, 2023). Her work appears in POETRY, jubilat, Split this Rock, and more. She teaches poetry workshops through various organizations, including Poetry Foundation, Hugo House, and prisons in Michigan. She also works for Rachel Zucker’s poetry podcast, “Commonplace.”

You can follow her on Instagram @lekasugar

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Cid Galicia Reviews “The Flightless Years” by Jamie L. Smith

Myths and Modernity: A Review of Jamie L. Smith’s Collection, “The Flightless Years”

Review by Cid Galicia

The Flightless Years
Finishing Line Press
2024
IBSN: 979-8-88838-810-5

Book cover of 'The Flightless Years' by Jamie L. Smith featuring an illustration of a winged figure and a centaur.

“God may be in the details, but the goddess is in the questions.
Once we begin to ask them, there’s no turning back.

-Gloria Steinem

“Myths which are believed in, tend to become true.”                                                 

-George Orwell

Navigating the poems in Jamie Smith’s collection, The Flightless Years, is akin to experiencing MTV’s The Real World – Greek Mythos Season.

What happens when you put Chronos, Apollo, Artemis, Persephone, Alice, J, the speaker, and her mother in the same room? Apollo’s sun chariot is stolen and turned into a green 97 Geo Tracker. Children are consumed by their parents, only to be explosively reborn. Ambrosian-stardust addiction leads to tragedy and allies turn into enemies. It is an incredibly well-constructed catastrophe. When we deem those around us godlike, be they family or friends, darker realities are revealed.

The myths predate forgiveness. Lighting, fire, wrath, and flood—the early Gods were invested in violence. I don’t know when this changed, when we came to believe in supreme benevolence. In the time before forgiveness, there was only revenge or rescue.

The Opening

Let us dive into a journey of shifting galaxies – divine comedies and tragedies, realities and fictions, family and fatality, romance and wreckage. 

Before she forces her readers to these depths, Smith benevolently opens up this collection by way of a very seductive piece titled Stingray. This poem is a siren’s lure to the pleasure and pain that the reader will witness. Before the final line, which disrobes the speaker to her lover, there are shared bodies of exploration – scars, birthmarks, knees, tongues, clavicles, and thighs.

Smith is the Hephaestus of poem endings, and many of her poems close with the finest metallurgy or lava-like drippings of lines. The final line in Stingray

Enough words for tonight. 

Section I

In the first section, we meet the three primary women that readers will follow throughout the collection: The speaker, the speaker’s lover Alice, and the speaker’s mother, who is continuously transmorphing her character between Artemis, Persephone, Chronos, and many others. Many poems in the first section are snaring serpents lying in wait to strike. The Flightless Years is a constellation, both in format and phrases, that introduces the stage of mythology, exploring a mother and daughter’s relationship.

Rat Nest is an origin story of how the lowest of creatures, suffering the hells of this world, also possess an immortal instinct to survive. When We Were Young I Never Lost Or Won introduces the adolescent curiosities to tempt death and daring, pitting the mind and body against freeways and freight trains. In The Closet brings us back to the opening poem, Stingray perhaps, introducing us to the narrator’s Alice. But what is very special is the reader’s introduction to the first three of nine, Flawed Mythologies.

These are a series of lyrical essays of the speaker’s desire, or curse, to recall the relationships with the loved ones from her life. In FMI the speaker is forced to return to and recycle the myths – as she comes to terms with the falling of her once godlike friend, J. FMII, a goddess mother training her daughter to survive the battles in the desolate lands of this world–This was the game: she would say, “Hit me,” and I would refuse. And FMIII–

I remember her holding me under water until I inhaled silt. Then she saved me. Which fact matters more? She was just playing.

Section II & III

After mentors, thresholds, tests/enemies/allies, there is the internal battle of the self–the innermost cave.  The poem, In Praise of Variance, captures this in these lines:

My mother taught me
there’s a certain grace in giving up
on the hope of relief.

In the same section, the poem, Leap Years, situates the reader with the speaker in Brooklyn. This poem captivated me immediately with the vivid description of the Domino Sugar Refinery. It hits close to home for me because we have a sister Domino factory here in New Orleans. I have also witnessed in solace, and sorrow, the hazy neon lights smoking into the sunset from the west bank of the Mississippi River.

A view of the Domino Sugar Refinery at dusk, featuring its illuminated structures and smokestacks against a darkening sky, reflecting on the water in the foreground.
Domino Sugar Factory

the Domino sugar factory sign,
its dead neon

glowing alive.
The dome of the sky becomes

clear to us—a half-sphere
lit at its edges, a cat’s-claw-moon

In this section, FMIV and FMV, a god falls to darkness, and so does a piece of the heart of the narrator, who had always been a faithful believer. She must fight through herself and her experience with her mother, as her friend J with his father, to perhaps die, be reborn, and return home with the elixir to survive.

I am my mother’s daughter. J was his father’s son. Some violences transmit
from generation to generation. But our actions were our own.

Section III closes with FMVI, a tale of humans’ desire for the ambrosia of the gods. When they attempt to create it on their own, it is tainted with ambition and escapism.

Years ago, a batch of heroin called Raptor led to a dozen overdose deaths in New York and New Jersey. It was cut with Ajax. Before Raptor there was Icarus. The tiny bag had a red wing stamped on its side.

In drug-speak, when someone injects for the first time, they say they’ve gotten their wings. This is the story of Pegasus, the white horse the heroes rode to freedom.

Red Bull says its wings will make you fly. Heroin turned Raptor cut with Ajax–says it will make you die…

Section IV

I will leave the final section for each to venture through on their own and close on this: The Flightless Years is a modern day lyrical epic and fantasy on the war of love – for ourselves, our friends, our family, and our gods.

Smith, for me, becomes Hermes as the writer of this collection. Like Hermes, she is the harbinger between boundaries and transitions. She writes many roads, thresholds, borders, and all forms of crossings between worlds – both literal and mythical. She guides readers through her personal journey, allowing them to relate with their own experiences, find their own elixirs of survival, and bring them home.


Jamie L. Smith holds an MFA from Hunter College (2020) and a PhD in English Literature & Creative Writing from the University of Utah (2024). Her poems, nonfiction, and hybrid works appear in publications including Bellevue Literary Review, Red Noise Collective, Southern Humanities Review, Tusculum Review, The Write Launch, Red Wheelbarrow, and elsewhere. She lives and writes between Salt Lake and New York City and is an Assistant Professor of English at Utah Asia Campus in Songdo, South Korea.

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Sydney Poniewaz Reviews Hyeseung  Song’s “Docile: Memoirs of a Not-so-Perfect Asian Girl”

Reflections on the American Dream in Hyeseung Song’s “Docile: Memoirs of a Not-so-Perfect Asian Girl

Simon and Schuster
Docile
Memoirs of a Not-So-Perfect Asian Girl
By Hyeseung Song

Review by Sydney Poniewaz

Hyeseung Song’s intimate and tender memoir, Docile: Memoirs of a Not-so-Perfect Asian Girl, explores the captivity of the expectations introduced by the “American Dream,” a concept that promises prosperity and happiness to anyone who works hard. For Song and her family, these expectations are amplified through the model minority myth that Asian Americans often face. This myth stereotypes Asian American adults as higher-earning and Asian American children as excellent students, especially in science and math. Song grows up alongside both and in this memoir she challenges these narrowly defined ideas as she carefully chronicles the complexities of her journey. It is a path of self-discovery and reflection and one where Song must re-define who she is and what happiness means to her. er. 

The daughter of Korean immigrants, Song’s childhood is consumed by competing ideas of the “American Dream” and what success looks like. Her father, who she calls Appa, makes the decision to move the family to America in pursuit of his idea of the American Dream– large sums of money. As Song describes, “Appa wanted it all.” However, his elaborate business ventures and impulsive spending drained the family’s bank accounts. 

In the face of Appa’s recklessness, Song’s mother, who she calls Umma, provides for the family as a nurse. Observing Umma’s quiet compliance in funding Appa’s fruitless endeavors, Song internalizes the lesson that “love is obedience.”  In turn, she attempts to be docile and fulfill Umma’s wishes. This mother-daughter relationship fuels the central conflict of the memoir. Umma, deeply unhappy with her own life warns Song, “don’t be like me when you grow up Hyeseung-a.” However, in Umma’s efforts to mold Song into her idea of “success,” Song becomes confined to an idea of the American Dream that prioritizes achievement over happiness.

As Song grows older, her identity becomes increasingly entangled with her mother’s expectations. Song learns that her mother’s love for her is conditional on her success, reflecting, “she loved me, but it never felt what I wanted was worth listening to because she was too busy trying to shape me in her image, to love me if and only if and on condition.” 

While away at Princeton, Song reaches a breaking point. Despite being the only girl in her school to attend an Ivy League university, often regarded as the pinnacle of success in American society, the pressures to succeed toss Song into a depression. She confides in her dean and says, “I’d like to belong to myself and work at something I know I could contribute to without having to ‘be the best.’ A mistake wouldn’t be death, but rather a mistake. At night, I’d read or walk. And the only rule would be to do what fulfills me and only me.” In response, the dean offers Song an escape, a year off from Princeton. This conversation marks the rejection of the traditional American Dream as well as the expectations of her family and the pursuit of an alternative path. For the first time, Song gains agency over her own life. 

Many coming-of-age stories focus on the universal human desire to fit in; however, Song’s story highlights the Asian American experience often left out of the media. As a child, Song is introduced to the pressures of the model minority myth through expectations from her peers, parents, and teachers to excel in school. Her identity is so tightly bound to her academic success that when she is given the superlative, “thinks she’s the smartest” instead of “smartest girl” it destroys her sense of self completely. For most of her early education, Song not only believes that succeeding academically is what she should be doing but also who she is. Stories of Song’s academic success and failures begin in just the second chapter and dominate much of the memoir, highlighting their significance on her identity. 

With lyrical vulnerability and a perspective usually left out of mainstream literature, Docile: Memoirs of a Not-so-Perfect Asian Girl serves as a critique of the American Dream and a powerful reminder that success can look different for everyone. In a time of increasing mental health issues for young adults, Song’s memoir is both comforting and encouraging for those who feel lost amongst the various influences in their lives as they attempt to discover their identity.


Docile: Memoirs of a Not-so-Perfect Asian Girl is available now, from Simon and Schuster, Bookshop, Barnes and Noble, Amazon, and Books-A-Million.

About the reviewer:

Sydney Poniewaz is a writer and public relations professional from St. Louis, Missouri. Her interests in social issues such as women’s rights, economic empowerment and diversity often inform her writing and creative projects. When not writing, you can find her sipping coffee, practicing yoga or diving into a good book.

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Cid Galicia Reviews “That’s a Pretty Thing to Call It” Edited by Leigh Sugar

That’s a Pretty Thing to Call It” Prose and Poetry by Artists Teaching in Carceral Institutions

Review by Cid Galicia

Edited by Leigh Sugar
Published by: New Village Press
October 2023
IBSN: 978-1-61332-211-6

“In a real sense, all life is interrelated. All men are caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied in a single garment of destiny. Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly. I can never be what I ought to be until you are what you ought to be, and you can never be what you ought to be until I am what I ought to be…This is the inter-related structure of reality.”

-Martin Luther King
Letters From Birmingham Jail

To read Leigh Sugar’s collection of writing, in That’s a Pretty Thing to Call It, is like visiting a prison, looking through the bars, and seeing – perhaps a villainized version of yourself. How is it that when you stop and stare at the person behind bars that you both know and don’t know them? You love them, and are scared of them; You want to save them, help them, or at least listen to them. And in the end decide that the best and most empathetic thing to do is to offer connections and resources with which they can develop their voice and share it by way of publication, with hope that it will lead to positive change in the “justice system.”

This is a collection of writing by artists who have taught creative arts to people who are incarcerated or otherwise involved in the criminal legal system. Contributions were selected from submissions responding to a national call, as well as from targeted outreach to specific individuals involved in the prison arts community. I accepted poetry and prose, fiction and nonfiction. This project is unique in its poly-vocality: it gathers accounts from artists from across the country (and one international submission) working across different mediums, demonstrating the range of experiences one can have when entering these institutions.

Justice System…what a strange and sad term. One of the first thoughts in my head was how would someone go about trying to design and manifest such a potentially treacherous literary task – given the current state of the relationship between citizens and law enforcement. And even if you were able to – how would you manage to gather allies and not offend both the people whose voices you are trying to help broadcast – as well as those who fund, lead, staff, and work to keep them contained? In an interview with New York University she was asked, and addressed those thoughts and struggles openly and honestly:

I was nervous about how and where to position this writing
given that I didn’t want to speak for incarcerated artists or
co-opt the conversation. So, I realized I couldn’t be alone in
these thoughts and started reaching out to others. I soon had enough material to envision a larger collection, and the project has grown over the years through my own professional development to take on a decidedly more political stance.

As an educator in New Orleans, I know that the school-to-prison pipeline is an issue that has been “officially” pushed toward public awareness since 2005. I have deep respect for Sugar’s drive and persistence to push this collection into the present world. How do you best build opportunity, without the reflex to save? It is good that some have helped pave the path for such an undertaking.. Two years ago my MFA mentor Kate Gale, Publisher of Red Hen Press, assigned me to read and digest C. D. Wright’s One Big Self, where she laid witness to hard times in Louisiana Prisons.

Not to idealize, not to judge, not to exonerate, not to
aestheticize immeasurable levels of pain. Not to
demonize, not anathematize. What I wanted was to
unequivocally lay out the real feel of hard time.

-C.D. Wright

Sugar immediately begins to tackle, and address, the difficulty of the lexicon used when discussing the prison setting: The landscape of “hard time” is commonly represented through data. How most information is hidden from the greater population at large, and that which isn’t is geared for the receivers to see inmates/prisoners as dehumanized others. There are nearly two million people jailed in the United States, and this a greatly reduced number in the aftermath of covid. When taking into consideration parole, probation, and other alternative avenues– the real numeric data is closer to six million. The real truth is that the US incarcerates more of its people per capita than any other country in the world.

When asked the why, the reason, and the purpose for this collection–Sugar spoke on the literary community truth that should bother us all, and push us to engage in the power of poly-vocality for change: privilege and accessibility in the arts for marginalized communities.

This book is for non-incarcerated students learning about arts in prison, practitioners looking to share their skills and knowledge with incarcerated students, people concerned with questions surrounding access and privilege in the arts, incarcerated artists interested in the experience of those who enter the facilities to teach, and anybody curious to encounter the prison industrial complex from a human/creative, rather than policy/statistical, perspective.

The collection is divided into three sections: Prose, Hybrid, and Poetry. Let’s walk the prison halls and walls in this collection together, as I offer an observation of what you will encounter should you choose to fully complete the journey on your own.

Prose and Con(s)victs: To Indite or Indict, that is the question.

The prose section opens with Phil Christman’s piece, On Diction and Disprivilege: How an obscure verb changed the ways I edit prisoner’s writing. Christman is an editor for The Sky is On Fire After All: The Michigan Review of Prisoner Creative Writing Volume Six. He was editing Benjamin Cloud’s poem Prison Letters, which you can find on page 172 of Sugar’s collection, specifically the line: Pen meets paper the correspondence indited.

Indited is a transitive verb from the Old French endtier which means to put into words, to compose, or to put into writing. Cloud was right, and Christman found himself wrong. I encourage you to read this piece as he walks you through his inner turmoil of battling himself, his copyeditor/wife, and his typesetter/printer in order to remain true to the writer.

Our society’s collective unwillingness to imagine that such people (intelligent and well-spoken inmates) exist creates an atmosphere in which, even if I believe Benjamin Cloud meant to write “indite,” I’m still tempted to foist an unnecessary and absurd edit on the poem, simply because I don’t think some of his readers will be able to read the word without assuming it’s an error, one ultimately attributable to him, a man in prison, a black man – a man who hardly needs more strangers attributing errors to him. I find myself tempted to butcher his copy for his own protection! Ultimately, of course, I didn’t do so. I didn’t do so because it would be a horrible violation of my role as editor and his role as writer.

Those with privilege often have the instinct to save, correct, or override the action – and in this case the words of those without privilege. Sugar wrestled with this, as did Christman here, as do many others in this collection, and as do I. This collection of growth-oriented people, like those just mentioned, sharing their experiences and actions in contending with this marginalized group of our writing community, should push us to check ourselves to do the same – and to take action on it.

Hybridization Breakouts Come in Threes

Deep in the Hybrid Section of the collection, there is an interview of incarcerated writers selection titled: On Why “Prison Writer” is a Limited Label: What Incarcerated Writers Want the Literary Community to Understand. The stigma the prison writing community finds itself being constantly vetted by is as follows…

On the flip side, nearly every serious writer in prison I’ve encountered grows a similar disdain for, or at least frustration with, the label prison writer – one that slaps on a special qualifier of romanced danger and warped intrigue, invites immediate background checks, sets up expectations of particular content, and potentially turns off an entire readership.

Incarcerated writer Elizabeth Hayes agrees stating:

Every time a prisoner submits their writing into the public sphere they are subjecting themselves to an audience who can easily look them up and be told a prosecutor’s version of a story (true or untrue) about their conviction. This is in juxtaposition to all a prisoner desires: To put the past behind them; To lay low and quietly merge back into society; To reconnect with those they love in fresh circumstances. . . . While all artists/writers question the value of their work and wonder who is viewing it and how it is being perceived, a prisoner who is an artist or who writes always carries the added burden of having to apologize for their past.

In the early 2020s Pen America launched The Breakout Movement: Works of Justice.

This was to become an online series featuring writers and writing connected to the Pen America Prison and Justice Writing Program. The partnership aimed to dig into the relationship between writing and incarceration, and presented challenging conversations about criminal justice in the United States.

In the piece three questions are asked of the incarcerated writers:

  1. What do you want us to know about the experience of being a writer in prison? Or being a writer outside of prison (the label, the stigma, the space)? Or both!
  2. What are your hopes for how your work is received by the literary community on the outside?
  3. In what ways can you envision a lasting connection with the literary community outside the walls? From your perspective, what can we do to be more inclusive, or to help shift the narrative?

Here is one response to the first question by Zeke Caligiuri:

The story of incarceration is not a singular one. Just as the story of marginalization or the dynamics of power do not follow a singular linear moral pathway throughout our history. That is why it is important to broaden the spectrum of voices being held in the great captivity business. Whether free or encaged, we all live with some kind of stigma – that’s the nature of making decisions you can’t take back. We have to temper our own regret with our belief that our work matters at some deeply philosophical or social level, that cannot be represented by anybody else. So, as writers, we are conscientious that a sense of self-value can only be created personally. If we are looking to be redeemed at some greater social level with our work, I’d say that is an undue expectation for our art. We only get short windows of time on this earth to be and create, wasting it because we want other people to love or like, or forgive us is a lot of pressure to put on our art.

Prison Poetry Blues

“On Blueness” by Joshua Bennett appears in the poetry section of the collection. Here is the opening section of the piece.

On Blueness

which is neither misery
nor melancholy per se,
but the way anything buried
aspires. How blackness becomes
a bladed pendulum swaying between
am I not a man & a brother
& meat. How it dips
into the position
of the unthought,
then out. Trust me.
Foucault isn’t
helpful here. I am after
what comes when the law leaves
a dream gutted. The space
between a plea & please.

Bennet has become one of the most powerful emerging voices in contemporary poetry. The Sobbing School, his opening debut in 2014 and winner of the 2015 National Poetry Series Award was born out of state violence against black lives. This piece and many others in this collection force the question: What comes when the law leaves a dream gutted?

This collection is a brave and bold task of shining a light on the prison system in this country, the voices contained therein, and the allies to those voices who would broadcast the idea that their lives and voices hold value and should be heard. This is no minor or easy scripted task. Sugar, her collected writers, and their collected voices however are strong steps in the direction of placing these truths on the pens and papers of us all.


Leigh (she/her) is a writer, teacher, and, most importantly, learner. Her debut poetry collection, FREELAND, is forthcoming from Alice James Books in 2025, and she created and edited That’s a Pretty Thing to Call It: Prose and poetry by artists teaching in carceral settings (New Village Press, 2023). Her work appears in POETRY, jubilat, Split this Rock, and more. She teaches poetry workshops through various organizations including Poetry Foundation, Tupelo Press, Justice Arts Coalition, etc. She co-facilitates (with Nila Narain) Access Oriented Lit, a reading series by and for disabled poets. She also works for Commonplace, Rachel Zucker’s poetry podcast.

That’s a Pretty Thing to Call It is available from NYU Press.

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Jonah Peretz Reviews Davon Loeb’s “The In-Betweens”

Davon Loeb’s The In-Betweens: An American Reflecting Pool

West Virginia University Press
Publication: February 2023
280 pp
PB 978-1-952271-74-8

Review by Jonah Peretz

Within the waters of Davon Loeb’s The In-Betweens: A Lyrical Memoir, Loeb illuminates what it was like for him to grow up with a split identity. In doing so, he paints a picture of what it might be like for anyone to grow up with such split identities – for a country to exist with such a fractured sense of self. While one side of his family might agree with Langston Hughes’s Let America Be America Again that “America never was America to me,” the other side might not. For bearing this internal conflict, both sides regard him as an outsider – a misfit. The In-Betweens is a testament to perseverance in the face of such divides. Throughout this collection of essays, the heartbreak of rejection comes not only from without, but from within, yet so too does the conquering of such rifts. Through incisive prose and candid reflection, Loeb shows that no one is ever truly alone in their struggle, however bleak it may seem. 

In the essay Alabama Fire Ants, Loeb’s many cousins, all staying at his Nana’s house in Alabama during sweltering summers, tease him relentlessly: “I was the white boy in a family of Black boys and Black girls…White Boy can’t jump. White Boy can’t play. White Boy go back inside.” Paradoxically, in the essay The Best Dancer, this same ‘white boy’ is celebrated as an exemplar of Blackness in his small New Jersey town. Loeb finds himself aspiring to be the Black kid his peers expect him to be: “The Black Kid Who Danced.” His very existence seeming “…a collage of a single Black narrative. I wore FUBU, Timberland boots, and baggy pants. My hair was in cornrows. My Walkman CD player housed mixes of my favorite rappers.” To win the superlative of Best Dancer, he had to prove himself against the other contender – a boy named AJ, one of the only other black kids around. Yet Loeb relates: “…in reality, I was more like…those white kids, flattening what it means to perform Blackness, to be Black.” In battling AJ as the school craved, “It wasn’t just about who was the better dancer, but who the cooler and Blacker Black guy was.” 

Growing up, Loeb idolized his white father, Harry, and his half-brother, Alex. They were writers and artists, just like him. Their hair was the same consistency, their skin tones more alike than that of his mother’s family. But his reverence was not to last, as their physical absence, emotional distance, and mental health struggles began to make themselves known. Hearing Alex screaming and shouting to himself in the shower in the essay For My Brother, Loeb begs his mother to be picked up, never to return. His mother then tells him he is predisposed to such afflictions, that it’s in his genetics.

The adolescent Loeb is caught between the love he once had and the fear he now feels for his father’s side, and thus for himself. Loeb’s stepdad is the opposite – great around the house, physically fit; a proper Black man, according to a young Loeb. His brother by his mother’s side, Troy, is similar – ‘Blackness’ seems to come easily to them. In the essay Thoughts on Hair, Loeb sought to replicate Troy’s cornrows, only to feel as though he’s “appropriating the part of Black culture that [he] wanted too.” Despite knowing his ancestry, and living primarily among his Black family, he doesn’t feel at home. He is all too aware that to an uninformed onlooker, he could be one of many races, torn between worlds by the world. 

In The In-Betweens, Loeb stands as witness to the many ways his family, friends, and country have tried to inform him of which box he and others belong in. He deftly illustrates the ways these circumstances forced him to plant his feet and declare that while he may not fit into tidy categories he is still, despite or because of that, Davon Loeb; that his reflection can still be seen within these dark waters, for within his own body lies the source of light.


The In-Betweens is available now, from West Virginia University Press.

About the reviewer:

Jonah Peretz is a senior writing major at Ithaca College, having initially enrolled as a physics major hoping to study astronomy. He remains passionate about astronomy and science to this day, and recently discovered a predilection for editing and proofreading. When not in class, you might find him expanding his musical horizons, playing D&D, or studying the ancient tomes (Wikipedia).

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Rory Gould Review’s “Sky Watch” by Emma Hudelson

Under Saddle and Spirit: Emma Hudelson’s “Sky Watch”
by Rory Gould

Sky Watch: Chasing An American Saddlebred Story by Emma Hudelson

The University Press of Kentucky
Publication: March 2024
HARDCOVER
ISBN: 9780813199108

Review by Rory Gould

Sky Watch: Chasing an American Saddlebred Story by Emma Hudelson tracks the narrative of the wild birth and remarkable life of Sky Watch, one of the most well-known names in Saddlebred showbiz. Ever since he was foaled in 1977, the young up-and-coming electrifying stallion had a winning air about him, which resulted in him taking home the prize for 4 five gaited open World’s Grand Championships and 5 stallion World’s Grand Championships. Sky Watch stands as an in-depth account of a showhorse like no other, written by a woman who has been deeply inspired by his existence.

Spanning much of the Midwest, in a true memoirist’s style, Hudelson paints the biographical picture of her own life, her daughter’s birth, and Sky Watch’s success alongside the lives of riders Mitchell Clark and Michele Macfarlane in such a way that makes it impossible not to root for all of them in tandem. She does so while also highlighting all the necessary research, communal ethics, and relevant statistics needed to both commentate on equestrian sports and recount the life of a horse that shook the American Saddlebred community. 

Emma gives an audience who previously might not have known or cared about American Saddlebreds a glimpse into a world only someone as dedicated as she can explain. There’s simply  no other way to communicate how intrinsic, natural, and inspiring Hudelson’s deeply personal  connection to horses is than to quote her experience riding one of Sky Watch’s descendants in  her last chapter, “Let the Horse Lead the Way.” There, she says, “We pointed straight for the opposite wall, heads up, and marched. One, two. One, two. My fingers tingled. My spine crackled. A sun was burning in the center of my chest.” Throughout her life, Emma has been no stranger to hardship, which she expands upon by detailing the experiences she has had with self-harm, assault, and overdose. Naturally, the only thing that seemed to be able to draw her back from the edge of her teenage depression was her connection to Saddlebreds.  

With the publication of any book, the author is expected to have a certain love for the topic they’re writing about. Emma is unique in the sense that her purpose and soul seem to be so intertwined with horses that she cannot exist without them, even if that means riding while pregnant or bringing her six-month-old up on the back of her mare in the hopes that her daughter, Fern, might help sustain the uncertain future of Saddlebreds.

Through writing Sky Watch:  Chasing an American Saddlebred Story, Emma reckons with the fact that the community she holds so close to her heart is entangled with a brutal history; it’s strapped into the stirrups of Confederate soldiers. Amidst a recollection of Sky Watch’s successes, (spanning 11 years and 14  chapters), Emma gracefully sheds light on the classist faults and racist foundations of the Saddlebred community – effectively condemning them where they need to be condemned – while also finding a place to speak up about her own mental health and engage with feminist themes such as motherhood.   

In her epilogue, Emma Hudelson says, “To ride an American Saddlebred is to trot with  God.” And even though she describes only horses as “portals to an otherworldly place…outside of time,” her braided narrative tracing Sky Watch’s accomplishments and her own upbringing as a self-proclaimed horse girl can be seen doing similar work. With the recent publication of her first full-length book, Emma has cracked open her own kind of portal into a world of profound emotional connection between both horses and humans alike.


Sky Watch: Chasing an American Saddlebred Story is available now, from The University Press of Kentucky

About the reviewer:

Rory Gould is a poet and nonfiction writer from Panama, New York. She is currently pursuing a bachelor’s degree at Ithaca College where her work has appeared in Buzzsaw and Stillwater Magazine. She spends most of her time reading and writing about gender expression, feminism, and nature.

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Finding A Life of One’s Own

Finding “A Life of One’s Own

Book by Joanna Biggs

Review by Camilia Cenek

Harper Collins Publishers
Publication: May 2023
272 pages
ISBN: 978-0063073104

On my first solo trip since having a fourth baby, after beginning a new career as a writer in midlife, I entered a corner bookshop in Alexandria, Virginia, deliciously alone. There I stumbled upon and purchased a copy of Joanna Biggs’s literary memoir A Life of One’s Own: Nine Women Writers Begin Again. The title beckoned for obvious reasons and hinted at answers to questions spinning through my overloaded maternal mind: “How to carve out space for myself as a writer as I simultaneously inhabit the roles of woman and wife and mother” had recently become the chief project of my existence.
Indeed, the imperative against and amidst existential midlife panic.

The alluring title spoke directly to my inner urgent, terrifying quest: to delineate the borders separating me from my offspring and social load-bearing. To discover how to thrive both within and outside of the walls of maternal responsibility. Who the hell am I anyway? And how can I write in all this noise?

In this, her first literary memoir Biggs lays her cards down, too. A transplanted divorcee grieving the loss of her marriage as well as the decline of her mother, Biggs found herself bewildered and deeply depressed. Her revelations chronicle the painful sloughing off of what she thought was expected of her, what she had believed would make her happy and satisfied. As she sheds an old life and gradually grows a new one, she charts what it can mean to live as a free feminist woman in the 21st century. 

Alongside her self-assessment, Biggs profiles the parallel trials of eight prolific women writers who also once groped through life and love and work. Her study insists that all three of these strands are inextricably entwined, informing everything about an author’s process and confidence. Biggs takes encouraging familiarity with her author-subjects, titling each section by the author’s first name: Mary, George, Zora, Virginia, Simone, Sylvia, Toni, Elena. (If you don’t immediately know to whom each name refers, familiarity with each is helpful but not a requirement.) In doing this, Biggs draws these foremothers closer, forces them and us readers into close proximity that exposes their (and our) vulnerabilities, fears, and failures. In insistently setting aside the canon, the literary feats, and the patriarchal surnames, Biggs arrives at each person beneath: the fully realized woman, her name, her self. 

The literary genre where A Life resides also needs a name, what I call bibliophilic critical literary memoir, a realm of writing that I discovered only recently. The term describes memoir specifically centered on love for and experience of a particular book(s) or author(s) and explored through an informed critical lens. The previous title I encountered in this genre was Rebecca Mead’s My Life in Middlemarch which, I discovered on Goodreads, and inspired intense debate about the nature of the as-yet (to my knowledge) unnamed genre. For instance, the book was downgraded by some readers as not adhering to its own proposed formula: it had Middlemarch, it had Eliot, but the author’s life that the title promised it had not. Although by my accounting Mead admirably disclosed interweaving stories of her youth, parents, graduate studies, and personal awakenings, for some readers her biography was not baked into the book in sufficient proportion to the subjects of her study.

But to me, Mead’s My Life and Biggs’s A Life were more than a little successful–rather, they were indescribably influential. They cracked open a new way of reading, of seeing, of writing for me, a fellow writer-reader, a fellow feminist. Biggs’s book takes the next natural step beyond Mead’s, evolving from Mead’s case study of one colossal, perennially beloved and admired novel (George Eliot’s Middlemarch) to a longitudinal study of the biographies of a lineage of women writers, each of whom (Eliot included) birthed colossal, canon-forming, canon-breaking works in an array of literary genres and historical-political moments. Each writer, Biggs contends, stood on the shoulders of the sister-mother-writer-teacher (friend) who came before. And each surmounted (or didn’t) the obstacles of love, loss, self-doubt, lack of education, childrearing or childlessness, death, and suicidality that plagued them. Their struggles, like ours, were universal–prescriptive even–for women. Yet the particulars were utterly unique. 

Like Biggs and Mead, I too aspire to complete a particular memoir, one that I began years ago about the life and death of my mentally ill, suicidal mother and her impact on me. One might note that my premise sounds familiar–other notable titles in what I call the mother memoir genre include Daughter of the Queen of Sheba by Jacki Lyden, Motherless Daughters by Hope Edelman, and recently, the provocatively-titled I’m Glad My Mom Died by Jeannette McCurdy. Why on earth, you might ask, do we need yet another mother memoir, another recounting of the personal revelations of a daughter who strives to make sense of her mother’s illness? The answer is that my story is both universal and unique. Perennial and particular. I stand on the shoulders of the other feminist memoirists who came before, and who light path markers for me. Women writers don’t crowd each other out with exclusivity; instead, we usher the next one in. As Biggs shows me and other readers in A Life of One’s Own, charting one’s path through a feminine and feminist existence in this world is all of many things: fraught, fragmented, disappointing, unfair, bewildering, terrifying, exciting, and mundane. It does not, though, have to be lonely. We women writers and readers are in good company. 

On occasion, Biggs’s reverence for our mother-authors can seem gullible (such as when she takes at face value Toni Morrison’s claim that she would happily jettison her career if a young single mother with aspirations to perform brain surgery needed a nanny). Yet her humane, patient, painstaking perusal of each writer’s biographies, writings, notebooks, manuscripts, archives, and letters is breathtaking. In the end, and throughout, I am grateful to Biggs and her excellent project. Her landmark bibliophilic critical literary memoir offered a soul-nourishing, sisterly walk arm-in-arm through the lives and hearts of accomplished women writers and readers, including the ones who came before, herself, me, and – I hope – you, too.


A Life of One’s Own is available now, from Harper Collins Publishers.

About the reviewer:

Camilia Cenek is a poet, writer, and editor. She has BA and MA degrees in English as well as a BA in Psychology. She once lived in France and in South Korea and now makes her home in Wisconsin. Her writing has appeared or is forthcoming in Madison Magazine, The Sunlight Press, and Creative Wisconsin Anthology. She is currently developing an essay collection about growing up with her mother’s mental illness. When not writing, she makes snacks and crafts with her four young children. Find her at camiliacenek.com.

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Liminal Souls: On Juliana Lamy’s You Were Watching from the Sand

Liminal Souls: On Juliana Lamy’s You Were Watching from the Sand
Review by Adams Adeosun

Red Hen Press
Publication: September 2023
176 pages
ISBN: 978-1636281056

Juliana Lamy’s You Were Watching from the Sand arrives with praise from Kevin Brockmeier and Laura van den Berg, two practitioners of the weird, and for good reason—her debut short story collection is, itself, weird. It’s a weirdness that announces itself right off the bat, at the beginning of the first and titular story, in a declaration that barrels past introduction, and past orientation, forcing familiarity with the protagonist and, perhaps, the reader: “Of course I remember you.” It’s a masquerade of a sentence, revealing nothing of the knowledge it claims but asking to be questioned all the same. The narrator hovers, disembodied but solid in voice. What follows then is a chant, incantatory, a loudness whose intent is to intimate and obliterate in the same breath. Consider this passage which comes halfway into the story—

You can’t remember, you don’t know, you don’t know, you don’t know because before it even started you’d left your body behind, you’d swam to the shore. You were watching it happen from the sand, some tiny Black boy with a face as blank as the rest of the universe, eyes so empty you couldn’t believe they’d ever been anything but.

—after a long evocation of the protagonist’s birth on a day when “all the branches of Exhaustion the River empty out inside their [everybody’s] stomachs,” after a lyrical detailing of secondary traumas, after the brief interpolation of a mother’s neurotic fixation on a religious apocalypse. It comes in a scene of direct trauma, the boy dissociating, vacating his body and the crime scene. He is unable to fully see himself for the duration of this story, the burden of intimation taken up by a divine witness (and architect) who he can’t not recognize when they meet in the coda which is at once a promise and a curse. In this opener, everything, including beauty and tenderness, is yolked inside with disaster and this is the mood of the collection.

Che, a secretly ajar girl, squats with Nadia on the upper floor of a bodega in “The Oldest Sensation is Anger”. Their relationship is rough-and-tumble, textured with minor provocations and unruly emotions, almost like cohabiting lovers. The latter is so legible in her desire for transcendence that she falls back down to earth each time she tries—“Bungee jumping when I swear, I bet anything, your ass couldn’t skydive.” The former is a riddle, a regenerative two truths and a lie, her life so disruptive to her Haitian town that she has been sent into exile in the United States. She has a “Simpsons suitcase,” a flimsiness in the specificity, as though she could have left it behind or could cast it aside any moment now and just go again.

Lamy’s collection is most comfortable in liminality and the instability of both geographical and metaphysical borders. No one is fully at home anywhere. They are either arriving or departing, appearing or disappearing, breaking in or escaping, running from or towards something. Sylpha from “Sylpha” is obsessed with Voyager (most likely the 1991 film about the post-disaster odyssey of a construction engineer), Kiki has to lay low in her mother’s sister’s house because she is in trouble in “Manticore,” Eli in “Eli” is kidnapped from his street and transported and transported for thirteen pages. And so on. 

By the final story, “Mermaids!”, all these instabilities have taken on a more logistical form: papers. “We both know that the government can send you back for not having papers,” the first-person narrator says and, a little later, “I wonder out loud if anybody’s ever tried to split papers before.” 

Despite or because of this, the characters carry their home, the Caribbean, within them like a vital organ, their minds tuned to the finer details of the histories and myths of their heritage. They are conduits and conductors for ancestral and spiritual practices. Take Sylpha’s explication of dreams for instance. 

Before Sylpha had any children, she’d wanted, more than anything, to train her dreams. All the Haitian women she knew had had dreams of the number of children they’d have before they existed in the world, and what kind of people they’d be, and Sylpha started to think that the dreaming was the point. The dreaming made a funnel of itself and forced real life to drip right through, forced real life, molten, to run here or there. And if she could train her dreams, she could control the pour of reality through them.

A private and quiet event is made into a communal and ritualistic spectacle. This is quite different from Jung’s and Freud’s dream theories although an alter ego saunters through “Belly” later. Rather, it harkens back to the arcane art of indigenous black cultures whose dream practices proceed against psychology’s run of play, the dreamer inducing the dream, coaxing something tangible out of it. In “Sylpha,” it is specifically “a Haitian thing.” 

Sylpha dreams up twins and gets, instead, a single beautiful child with a full head of hair. One auspicious phenomenon is replaced with a different one as though a token of compensation. A successful birth is, of course, cause for celebration, and yet there is despair. The fulfillment of her wish is truncated, maybe merely deferred, and in this is contained an alienation from all the Haitian women she knew. The inverse is the case in “Manticore.” Two adult sisters offset from their origin, desperate to figure out a daughter who may be possessed by godhood, pool their knowledge together to conjure their grandfather’s ghost using the vodou religion they inherited from him. It is a moment of preternatural connection between the living and the living, then the living and the ascended:

We kneel in close to each other, gathered together like fingers in a fist. I turn to my Grandpa’s picture, and I pray truths too ugly for Elijah’s god. The first? That when Kiki crashed into Arley outside of that D&B, ruptured him, a part of me wishes that I could have watched.

There’s something insistently inflammable about the bodies in You Were Watching from the Sand. They are fragile and often in danger; their identities are fluid or interchangeable with other peoples’ depending on the beholder’s desires; they are dead or incarnations of death. Their souls, however, are sturdy and ‘wayward’ in historian and writer Saidiya Hartman’s broader sense of the word: “To claim the right to opacity. To strike, to riot, to refuse. To love what is not loved. To be lost to the world.” 

Not unlike Hartman in her ethnography, Lamy fills her prose up with the world. She hyphenates traditions and genres. She stacks up impressions and sensations to the point of almost synesthesia. The collection roils with extended metaphors, a live-wire lyricism, and mythic language. Her stories appear to talk back to other writers. Is that a whiff of Carmen Maria Machado’s “The Husband Stitch” in “The Oldest Sensation is Anger”? Does “July in New Orleans” bear a note of Neil Gaiman’s American Gods? As earlier mentioned, Freud’s psychology manifests androgynously in “belly,” incandescent like the book they come in.


You Were Watching from the Sand” is available now, from Red Hen Press.

About the reviewer:

Adams Adeosun is a graduate of the Iowa Writers’ Workshop and a 2023 MacDowell fellow.