You Ask Your Husband if He’d Do it All Over Again | Victoria Melekian
You know, marry you, and you see the small O of air he swallows before he says sure, but he doesn’t look at you.
You tell your sister you feel like you’re just hanging around, waiting for the next thing to happen. She pours two shots of tequila and says to stay in the now: six empty beer bottles, salt shaker, vase of white daisies. She lines up three bottle caps on the kitchen table and says, “Here’s your options: do nothing, follow him, leave.” You like doing nothing, staying in the moment: two shot glasses, crumpled napkin, blue tablecloth.
You slosh home with a head full of tequila. Your husband’s asleep on the couch, his arm around the dog. The eleven o’clock news fills the living room: drought, drive-by shooting, sports scores. You turn off the TV and whisper, “I’m leaving” into his ear.
Next morning is hot and smells like damp soil. You ask him to stay home from work. “Let’s make umbrella drinks and run through sprinklers.” He shakes his head and walks out the door. Coffee cup, spoon, flowered bowl.
You spend the day making lists—reasons to stay, reasons to go. You try to keep them even, but staying is losing and that’s when you know. The man’s been leaving for months and you—too slow to see. You’ve got the dog, an orange cat in a sunny windowsill, and three miscarriages.
On Saturday you follow him, option number two. You don’t know why you’re so surprised to see him with her, the woman, because of course there’s a woman, there’s always a woman no matter what they say. She’s pretty and looks like a woman who has babies. You imagine calling her phone and listening to her ask who’s there, who’s there. How many times before she’d hang up?
You think about option three, leaving. You remember new shoes in September, fresh notebooks, sharp pencils. You think about looking for a small apartment with French doors and a patio for plants.
He calls at dinnertime to say he’s working late, “really late, babe.” Whisk. Timer. Twine. You turn off the oven, dump the roasted chicken and potatoes, put away plates and silverware and fold the tablecloth. You pull down the window shades and sit in the dark. You listen to your neighbor lugging his garbage cans to the curb.
About the Author:

Victoria Melekian grew up in Los Angeles and now lives with her husband in Carlsbad, California. Her poetry collection “The Accidental Courage of Our Lives” is available from Sheila-Na-Gig Editions. “Unhoused,” Victoria’s novella-in-flash, won first place in the 2026 Bath Flash Fiction Novella-in-Flash Awards. For more, see her website: victoriamelekian.com













